Dangers of Molly the Drug (“molly the drug”)

Dangers of Molly the Drug (“molly the drug”)

We’re guessing you already know what molly is if you are wondering about the many dangers of molly the drug. But just in case you don’t know what molly the drug is let us clarify quickly what we are talking about;

We’re not talking about the girl you had a crush on in 5th grade math class or your best friend you spent your summers with, obviously.

We’re talking about Molly the drug.

Molly is the street name for pure MDMA. Molly is different than ecstasy pills or “E” because it comes in powder form or in capsules that are commonly more “clean” or pure than the “E” pills. The term Molly was derived from the word molecule. The idea that molly the drug is more pure gives its users, possibly you, the idea that is also safer. This just isn’t true. Molly the drug can be cut with other substances easily or it can be confused with other powdered substances. And this is just the beginning of the dangers of molly the drug.

So what does molly the drug do?

The primary effects of molly the drug are pretty consistent among all users. In general the molly drug takes on its effects within 45 minutes to an hour after consumption and hits a peak after 2 to 3 hours. After the peak molly drug hits a plateau that last about 2 to 3 more hours followed by a comedown. Molly the drug causes significant positive effects in its users. Effects such as:

•             An alteration in consciousness

•             A strong sense of inner peace and self-acceptance

•             Diminished fear, anxiety, and insecurity

•             Diminished aggression, hostility, and jealousy

•             Feelings of intimacy and love for others

•             Feelings of empathy, compassion and forgiveness towards others

•             Increased energy and endurance

•             Mild psychedelic, mental imagery and auditory and visual distortions or hallucinations

•             Improved self confidence

•             Increased drive, desire and motivation

•             The ability to talk about normally anxiety provoking issues

•             An intensification of all bodily senses

•             Stimulation, arousal and enhancement of appreciation of music

Now that you know how much fun molly the drug can be, it may be good if you ask the most important questions like, “what are the dangers of molly the drug?”

There are some immediate dangers to using the molly the drug. Molly the drug’s short-term side effects are quite alarming. Molly the drug interferes with the brain’s essential chemical functions. It kind of makes a scrambled egg out your brain. Molly the drug mixes up the temperature signals to the brain which can cause hypothermia, dehydration, or heat stroke.

The dangers of molly the drug are also things such as:

•             Blurred vision

•             Faintness

•             High blood pressure

•             Muscle cramping

•             Confusion

•             Panic attacks

So just how dangerous are the dangers of molly the drug?

Let’s just put it simply. You could die. You could also live. But the more important thing is that you realize the dangers of molly the drug; which in some worst case scenarios is death.

In some severe cases people have died from the dangers of molly the drug due to:

•             Seizures

•             Strokes

•             Cardiovascular and kidney failure

•             Dehydration

The amount of deaths involving molly the drug have increased because some people assume if you die from it you’re just not using it the “right way”.

Wait were not done with the dangers of molly the drug.

Another danger of molly the drug is that it has tons of interactions with other drugs. So if you’re planning on drinking a beer, doing some coke, LSD, or even taking just taking your allergy medicine with molly the drug-be careful. These molly drug cocktail combos can make the dangers of molly the drug, well, even more dangerous.

Your best bet against the dangers of molly the drug is just not to use it.

The best idea when using any drug is to know your facts and to be safe. Every drug including molly the drug has it dangers so it is best to just either practice abstaining or get as much information as you can on the substance.

How to Help a Chronic Relapser

How to Help a Chronic Relapser

What is a Relapse?

Relapse is resuming the use of a drug or a chemical substance after one or more periods of abstinence; a recurrence of symptoms of a disease (addiction) after a period of improvement; to slip or fall back into a former worse state (active addiction).

What is a Chronic Relapser?

Many addicts have a lifetime of drug and alcohol abuse but have never actually attempted to get sober. What makes chronic relapsers distinct is that they have tried and failed at maintaining sobriety many times over.

Profile of the Chronic Relapser

  • Numerous failed attempts at sobriety, or a return to drugs/alcohol after a substantial period of sobriety
  • Unable to maintain sobriety despite having a wealth of knowledge about addiction and recovery
  • Continued substance use despite significant, severe and repeated consequences
  • Chronic relapsers often feel hopeless that they will ever find lasting sobriety
  • Multiple treatment episodes, including psychiatric treatment, detox, residential, outpatient, and halfway houses
  • Significant exposure, attendance and/or participation in 12-Step programs. Chronic relapsers have a history of repeatedly working Steps 1, 2 and 3, but have never completed all 12
  • Treatment-savvy have learned to navigate their way through the treatment industry to meet their own agenda
  • A unique talent to exhaust the financial resources and emotional support of loved ones. Chronic relapsers leave their loved ones depleted of energy and emotional resources
  • As with most addicts, a pervasive cluster of personality characteristics are frequently exaggerated in the chronic relapser; they are very charming, intelligent, manipulative, convincing, deceitful, lovable, talented and passionate; chronic relapsers have mastered the art of survival, in and out of treatment.

How to Help a Chronic Relapser

Below are ways to get involve, support, and encourage successful recovery for a chronic relapser.

Encourage a long-term length of stay. It is a well-established fact that long-term treatment increases the chances of lasting sobriety. It is important to define the term “long-term treatment” as in a length of stay in excess of nine months. It can take a chronic relapser three to six months to wake up out of the fog in which they have been living. Post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) is very significant in chronic relapsers and frequently interferes considerably with their ability to comprehend recovery principles in early sobriety.

Remove outside distractions. Chronic relapsers are masters at distracting themselves and others from seeing the truth about them. It is essential to remove all things they use to change the way they feel and to force them to sit in their own skin.  It is well within the boundaries the treatment center to limit distractions through therapeutic contracts, clear-cut facility rules and guidelines, and limited family contact. As a loved one or family member of a chronic relapser, be aware that you may be asked not to visit early on or often throughout treatment.

Emphasize the mental and spiritual nature of the disease. It is essential that chronic relapsers understand they have a disease of the mind body and spirit, and that the solution through the 12 Steps is spiritual in nature.

Be active in getting your own treatment. In most cases, the family has participated in the progression of the illness in the chronic relapser through intense enabling behaviors. Therapy for the family cannot just be a suggestion; it must be non-negotiable. Get involved with Al-Anon or Nar-Anon and consider counseling for yourself and other family members.

Put an end to enabling. Family leverage is usually the most significant in keeping a chronic relapser in long-term treatment. Chronic relapsers must recognize in no uncertain terms that they will not receive any emotional or financial support from their family if they do not complete long-term treatment or remain sober.

Stay one step ahead. It has been established that chronic relapsers are treatment-savvy, tricky and highly manipulative. When you, as the family, do get to speak and/or visit the chronic relapser, don’t take what they say at face value. Don’t give them an inch.

Emphasize that they work all 12 Steps with a sponsor. It is important that working the 12 Steps is not just a suggestion, but a requirement. These individuals must be held accountable to obtain a sponsor and work all 12 Steps while they are still in treatment.

Be relentless with accountability. Treatment for the chronic relapser should include a constant emphasis on accountability, responsibility and consistency. It is essential that there be rules, limits, boundaries and consequences with chronic relapsers. Family and friends can support but knowing what is expected of their loved one and reinforcing these policies and practices in their encounters with the chronic relapser.

Sources:

http://www.addictionpro.com/

http://www.merriam-webster.com/

https://en.wikipedia.org

 

Fun Things to do on the 4th of July without alcohol

how to have fun on the fourth of july without alcohol

The 4th of July; the United States of America’s Independence Day. The 4th of July has become a tradition filled with barbeques, fireworks, and well, drinking, beer especially and maybe some sweet tea or lemonade. Either way, July 4th is the quintessential summer holiday for those looking for a reason to party right smack dab in the middle of the hottest and sunniest days of the year. Luckily, for those of us in recovery, while drinking may have been a part of our 4th of July tradition, there are fun things to do on the 4th of July without alcohol. For instance check out the list below!

  • Attend sober barbeques/parties
  • Attend festivities with sober supports, such as sober friends and/or your sponsor for accountability and support
  • Remember that you don’t have to attend every party that you’ve been invited to
  • Attend a 12 Step meeting that morning or during the day or that evening
  • Check your motives, make sure you are in a spiritually fit place, get input from people whom you trust, such as your sponsor
  • Do something different, start your own 4th of July tradition such as a deep-sea fishing trip, going to the amusement park, museums, art shows
  • Throw a party at your place and make it known to your guests that it’s a BYON-AB Party (Bring Your Own Non-Alcoholic Beverage)
  • Do volunteer work: help out at your local pet shelter, homeless shelter, nursing home, or hospital
  • Go to the beach either to hang out or to watch fireworks
  • Have a picnic
  • Go to the dog park! Dogs enjoy the 4th of July without alcohol too!
  • Go hiking, tour your local botanical garden, go boating, and learn to paddle board.
  • Maybe head over to the boardwalk, go wakeboarding, or lay out by the pool.
  • Run a 5k, 10k or half marathon
  • Go to a local sports event-baseball game.
  • Have a bonfire, make smores, camp!

All of these are fun things to do on the 4th of July without alcohol. If you find some of these things that are on the list of fun things to do on the 4th of July without alcohol are things you normally would do with alcohol either don’t do them and do something new, do them anyway and see how much fun they are, or do it with a bunch of sober friends.

The 4th of July doesn’t have to be about alcohol in fact it really shouldn’t be. The 4th of July is our Independence day and really what we are celebrating is the great freedom we have in getting to do something such as celebrate the 4th of July anyway we want! And if you are looking for fun things to do on the 4th of July without alcohol, well, it’s pretty much anything you want to do just minus the alcoholic beverages. Bonus of fun things to do on the 4th of July without alcohol is that you don’t wake up on the 5th with a hangover too. So get out there and enjoy your Independence; as a country and as a sober individual!

What is Recovery?

What is Recovery?

Recovery from addiction is a journey not a destination. Addiction does not happen overnight, it takes time, therefore recovery also takes time. Addiction and alcoholism are defined as diseases. Addiction is the physical dependence on any mind or mood altering substance and the continued use regardless of consequences. Addiction is not a moral deficiency but rather a disease of the mind, body and spirit. Most people who become addicted cannot using drugs or drinking simply because they want to or “will” themselves to. Most people who suffer from addiction or alcoholism must seek outside help or an outside solution rather to help them get sober and then remain sober as they journey into recovery.

Sobriety is the cessation of drug use or drinking after an addiction has been formed. In order to remain sober addicts and alcoholics must find help from an outside source because they cannot find sobriety or gain sobriety on their own. Most of the time addicts and alcoholics who want to be in sobriety have tried many times to be sober on their own and have not been capable of it. This is why drug and alcohol treatment centers are available to anyone suffering with disease of alcoholism or addiction. Sobriety and the help to get sober is offered in the form of detox, inpatient treatment, outpatient treatment, and support groups at these drug and alcohol treatment centers. Sobriety is not recovery though and in order to truly recover from the disease of alcoholism and addiction something more than just drug and alcohol treatment must be completed. This is where some kind of solution based therapy comes into play in order for the journey to recovery to begin.

Most people who want recovery begin by looking into 12 step programs because the term recovered is used in such self-help groups. Recovery is not only just the cessation of drug use and drinking but also the ability to live life effectively and usefully without the use of drugs and alcohol. This is why recovery is a lifestyle and not so much a destination that people reach once they get sober. Recovery is a way of living. More people than not find recovery in their 12 step fellowship such as AA or NA because it treats all three aspects of the disease of addiction. 12 step fellowships offer recovery because they give the addict or alcoholic not only the chance to stay sober but also steps to live a more effective and useful life. The 12 step programs of recovery offer a spiritual solution to a disease which includes a spiritual malady or maladjustment to life.

Recovery begins as soon as an addict or alcoholic’s behavior, ideals, ideas, thoughts, and actions change for the better. Recovery is not merely living life and battling against wanting to use drugs but finding the solution so they may never thinking of drugs or drinking again. Recovery allows this because it teaches a new way of life.

 

3 Ways You Are Enabling Newcomers

3 Ways You Are Enabling Newcomers

Most of the time when you think of enabling and enablers, especially when it comes to addicts and alcoholics you think of the family or loved ones. But enabling is something that can happen between any people in any type of relationship, including the relationship between newcomers and people with more clean time.

So what is enabling?

Enabling is “removing the natural consequences to the newcomer of his or her behavior.” People with more clean time will often feel compelled to solve a newcomer’s problems. If they’re involved with them deeply, they usually end up taking on the irresponsible addict’s responsibilities. Their behavior starts as a well-intentioned desire to help, but in later stages of addiction, they act out of desperation. The dynamics between friends, newcomer and person with more clean time or even sponsor and sponsee, become skewed, so that the person with more clean time increasingly over-functions and the newcomer increasingly under-functions. This builds resentment on both sides, along with the newcomer’s expectation that the person with more clean time will continue to make things right when they doesn’t meet his or her responsibilities.

Here are 3 ways you are enabling newcomers:

  • Giving them money: Most newcomers are broke. For the most part this is usually true. They have no job and have been scrounging up money most of their lives to fund their drinking or using habit. It can seem really tempting to give a newcomer money but this is enabling them. A newcomer needs to learn how to stand on their own two feet, especially when it comes to money. They should be finding a job and won’t have the drive or desperation to if they aren’t suffering the consequences of having no money.
  • Fulfilling their commitments to others: If a newcomer has made a commitment to be somewhere and can’t show up you don’t show up for them. You also don’t save them if for some reason they want to flake out on a ride somewhere. A way you are enabling a newcomer is by making excuses for them. Let them handle their own responsibilities and suffer the consequences if they are being accountable. This is how a newcomer will learn.
  • Bailing them out of jail: If for whatever reason a newcomer you know relapses and goes to jail or relapses in a halfway house and has nowhere to go. Enabling is letting them stay in the halfway house and enabling is bailing them out of jail. This is another scenario where letting them suffer the consequences is when they will learn. It is not your job to save them or make sure they don’t have to deal with the pain of their decisions. If a newcomer chooses to relapse they know the rules of the halfway house and the law so if they end up paying for that; they should deal with the consequences.

Enabling a newcomer can be very dangerous because they are teetering a fine line of trying to stay sober but not sure if they want to be sober. Enabling can make it easy for them to do what they want and stay in sick behavior. They will begin getting well when they have to suffer their own consequences and learn from their mistakes instead of being saved from them.

 

 

Mathew Perry-Addiction and Recovery

(Ricardo DeAratanha / Los Angeles Times)

Matthew Perry is probably better known as the comedic character on the show ‘Friends’ known as Chandler Bing. As we all sat and watched the lighthearted show about friends and love that we related to so much; little did we know what was going on the behind scenes. Matthew Perry was battling and suffering with a serious addiction to alcohol and painkillers. Matthew Perry was in his early 30’s around that time and was at the height of his career. He had a multimillion dollar salary on the hit television show ‘Friends’ and had numerous offers for feature films and endorsements. It really goes to show that addiction can happen to anyone even if they have what many of us find an “ideal” life. Matthew Perry’s ideal life came at a high price; for him it resulted in an addiction to alcohol and the narcotic painkiller, so many of us have heard of before, Vicodin.

In 2002, Matthew Perry told People magazine that at the lowest points of his addiction to painkillers and alcohol he would take 20 to 30 Vicodin pills and drink about a “quart of vodka a day.” Matthew Perry’s addiction started when he was prescribed Vicodin for a wisdom tooth extraction. Eventually the drug abuse began to take its toll on his body. The rumors ran rampant at this point that Matthew Perry had an eating disorder due to the weight fluctuations he was having. The weight fluctuations were actually caused by pancreatitis which is an effect of heavy drinking. Perry than returned to rehab for an “undisclosed illness” in 2001, following a trip in 1997. There was constant media coverage of his addiction throughout the entire ordeal

And even though Perry admits the constant media coverage was overwhelming at times, it actually played a huge role in helping him to get sober and stay sober believe it or not. It is said this is because fans were more than willing to help the actor get clean and kept him in line while he was out on the town.

He told ABC News, “It (the coverage) actually ultimately helped me because I couldn’t just walk into a bar (and ask for a drink). Everybody in the bar would go, ‘You can’t do that! I just read that you can’t do that! I can’t (give you a drink), you can’t (drink).”

Perry is now on the road to recovery, and works with addiction specialists and government officials to reform America’s drug laws, even offering up his posh Malibu, California home as a sober living facility to fellow addicts. Matthew Perry is doing everything possible to return the favor.  He has gone so far as to even open a sober living house to help men transition from rehab into the real world. “The thing that I’m most proud of in my life is that if a stranger came up to me and said, ‘I can’t stop drinking. I can’t stop drinking. Can you help me?’ I can say, ‘Yes, I can help you.'”

Sources:

http://www.torontosun.com/2013/05/30/matthew-perry-tabloid-coverage-helped-me-recover-from-alcoholism

http://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/news/matthew-perry-talks-about-past-drug-alcohol-abuse-i-was-a-sick-guy-2013315

http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/gossip/la-et-mg-matthew-perry-friends-addiction-20130530,0,2436089.story

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery

There are a lot of hard choices I’ve had to make in my recovery. I was given a lot of suggestions in the beginning, and some of the things I was asked to do weren’t necessarily things I wanted to do. I did realize, however, that my own choices had landed me in rehab. Doing what I wanted to do wasn’t working out very well for me.

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery: Should I get help?

The first hard choice everyone has to make in their recovery is to decide to recover; to get help. I was miserable when I was using drugs and drinking, but it was familiar and comfortable. I didn’t know what to expect from sobriety. What’s that old saying?  Better the devil you know than the devil you don’t. It’s scary to make a change, even if you are very unhappy. I had kind of accepted the way my life was. In my mind, it was normal to be miserable or at least normal for me. It was scary to make a change.

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery: Should I go to a sober house?

One of the first hard choices I had to make after treatment was whether to go to a sober house or move back home. I knew I would have a better chance at recovery at a sober house, but I wasn’t looking forward to rules and a curfew. I did end up going to a sober house, and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I made a lot of friends, had a lot of fun, and it kept me accountable during those early days of sobriety.

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery: Who should I ask to be my sponsor?

This is one of those hard choices everyone has to make in their recovery that isn’t actually that hard. I’ve seen people stress over who to ask, then they end up not having a sponsor for weeks on end. That can be dangerous. I think it’s important to ask someone who is working a good program, but beyond that it doesn’t really matter. Remember that your choice isn’t permanent. If you decide later on that you connect with someone else, you can always switch sponsors.

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery: Who do I hang out with?

When I first got into the rooms, people would always say “stick with the winners.” Not everyone I went to treatment with or lived with in the sober house stayed sober. In fact, most didn’t. It’s the sad reality of this disease: many relapse, few recover. The thing was, I really liked some of the people that relapsed. They were fun, and funny. But they weren’t doing the right things, and I knew it. I chose to surround myself with people who were doing the deal and working a program, because in the end, you are who you hang out with.

5 Hard Choices Everyone Has to Make in Their Recovery: When do I move out of the sober house?

If you make the choice to live in a sober house, eventually one of the hard choices everyone has to make in their recovery is when to move out. My advice? Don’t make this choice on your own. Ask your sponsor, ask your therapist, and ask the sober house manager.

Recovery and the Workplace

Recovery and the workplaceRecovery and the Workplace

Addiction recovery in the workplace is a tricky subject. For many addicts, having a job is crucial to recovery, but there is often a negative stigma attached to addiction, even when the addict is in recovery. We know that almost seventy percent of people who are struggling with addiction are employed, but when recovering addicts return to work after treatment, they aren’t always embraced.

Recovery and the Workplace: Getting Help

Many think that all addicts and alcoholics are living under a bridge somewhere, unemployed and doing whatever it takes to get drugs. This may be true for some addicts and alcoholics, but the vast majority are employed. Studies show, however, that many Human Resources departments don’t know how to handle an employee with an addiction. 92% of the ones surveyed say that there are resources available for employees with an addiction, but 38% said that no employees used that help.

There is a lot of evidence that recovery could start in the workplace, when people are educated on how to handle addiction in a work environment. The workplace can be an excellent place for interventions. While people suffering from addiction may be willing to sacrifice their home, friendships and even their family, many are not ready to risk their primary source of income. Often if their employer is involved in an intervention, they are much more likely to seek help.

Recovery and the Workplace: Should you tell your employer you are in recovery?

So what if your workplace doesn’t know you are in recovery. Should you tell them? My first sponsor had very strong opinions about recovery and the workplace. She said that it was important to keep your recovery and your work separate. She had nearly 25 years of sobriety and none of her colleagues knew she was an active member of Alcoholics Anonymous. She firmly believed that letting an employer know that you were recovering was detrimental to your career.

She may be right. Studies show that 25% of employers say they would be less likely to hire or promote someone in recovery. Ignorance and prejudice can make it hard for a person in recovery to land that first job after treatment. This is why some experts advise not talking about your addiction during an interview.

Recovery and the Workplace: The bottom line

There is a reason that many employers are hesitant to hire people in recovery. Obviously, drugs and the workplace do not mix, and those who abuse drugs and alcohol, take more sick days, are less productive, and are far more likely to jump from job to job. Even if someone is in recovery, it doesn’t mean they will stay sober. On the flipside, there are some studies that suggest that recovery and the workplace can be very positive. If someone is working a good recovery program they are likely to be more accountable, take fewer sick days, and work harder than there “normal” counterparts.

Recovery and the Workplace: Addiction as a disease

Ideally, every employer would be educated about addiction and would treat addiction just like any other disease. Unfortunately, this is not yet the case. The negative stigma surrounding recovery and the workplace is still very strong.

Letting Go of Anger

Letting Go of Anger

Letting go of anger can be as hard or as easy as you want to make it. Holding onto anger is a personal choice that we make for ourselves. Anger can be a poisonous thread that shoots through our lives and makes everything much more negative and harder than it needs to be. This is why it is so important to be able to let go of anger. But how do you do it? A lot of the times when we are angry we justify it by the actions done upon us by others. So the question is how do we begin letting go of anger?

Well, first we have to look at what anger is. What is anger?

Anger’s exact definition is a strong feeling of annoyance, displeasure, or hostility. Anger is an emotion. Anger is an emotional reaction to a person, place or thing that causes any of the three things mentioned in the definition. Sometimes anger is a defense mechanism and sometimes anger is a cover for fear. So here is how you begin letting go of anger.

First, recognize your anger. Realize your anger for what it is, an emotion and that it passes. If you really want to let go of anger this is the first step. Realizing and recognizing your anger is not totally letting go of anger though. You have to take action in order to begin letting go of your anger.

Look at the person, place, or thing that has made you angry and see why it has made you angry. Is it because of fear? Did you play any part in why this person, place, or thing could have made you angry? For example, did you have high expectations and were let down? Looking for what YOU could have done differently in the situation that has made you angry can quickly relieve some of that pent fury.

Next, you can put yourself in the shoes of the other person, place or thing. This is something that has worked since the beginning of time. Being empathetic to someone else’s situation is a great way to let go of anger. A lot of the time we have a hard time letting go of anger because we misunderstand someone, something, or some place. And in that case anger is a fear based defense mechanism.

So say for instance if you are angry that your cab driver is taking the long way around to get you to your destination-instead of staying angry try to picture his life. This cab driver may be trying to take you the long way around, and while it’s wrong, he is a cab driver, and may have a family at home to feed. That extra five dollars he will make because you had to take the long way to your destination may pay for his little girl’s new shoes etc. See how quickly letting go of anger can happen as soon as you try to picture why you might do something that makes you angry.

Letting go of anger is one of the biggest tools to have in your recovery tool belt. Once you learn how to let go of anger you will find total peace and contentedness. Being content doesn’t mean that your life is perfect it means that total chaos could be going on around you and you are still peaceful inside.

Ultimately things can anger you or you could let them go. It’s your choice. Find peace.

Finding purpose in my recovery

Finding purpose in my recovery

Finding purpose in my recovery

When I was using drugs, I didn’t think much about my life’s purpose. My purpose was getting and using drugs. That’s all I did, and that’s all I cared about. I didn’t think much further than the next high. I was a slave to those pills. They dictated everything I did. When I woke in the morning, my first thought was how I was going to get high that day. On rare occasions, I’d have enough to last me through a day or two and I’d get a reprieve from the constant hustling, lying, and manipulating to get more. The reprieve was short-lived, however, and the drugs never lasted.

Finding purpose in my recovery was not the first thing I was thinking about when I got sober either. “Purpose” was a lofty idea for a person who was just looking to stop thinking about drugs and alcohol every single second of the day. It was a good thing I went to treatment this time, because I would never had made it through the first twenty days of sobriety unless I was in a controlled environment. I felt so sick, beaten down, and dispirited, that I prayed for God to take me. I couldn’t eat, sleep, or even hold my head up in those first twenty days.

When I got out of treatment, I wasn’t particularly concerned with finding purpose in my recovery either. Without drugs and alcohol, I had no solution, no way to treat the internal emptiness. I was clean, but I was miserable. I embraced the program of AA, and began working steps in earnest. I began to find relief. I still wasn’t looking too far ahead, or questioning what my purpose in recovery was. I was just trying to do the next right thing.

Finding purpose in my recovery was not something I thought about until I had some sobriety and had worked twelve steps. Alcoholics Anonymous states that:

“Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.”

I found my purpose in recovery almost by accident. I began helping other alcoholics and I asked myself how I could be helpful in all other aspects of my life. When I had to make a decision, I would ask myself which path would allow me to be the most helpful to others, and that’s what I chose.

When I took this attitude, things just started falling into place for me. I had always wanted to write, but I didn’t have any work experience in writing or anything related. I’d kind of given it up as a lost cause, or resigned it to the future when I could go back to school and major in something like journalism.  At a few months sober, I met a woman in the rooms who offered me the opportunity to write about recovery on a daily basis. I could carry the message while doing what I’ve always wanted to do-writing. This is how I found my purpose in recovery, but I know it is not that easy for everyone. What I can tell you is this: If you do the right thing in your daily life and live a life based on spiritual principles, you will be amazed at the doors that will open for you. My primary purpose remains the same as it always was-to help the alcoholic that still suffers, but by doing that, I’ve found many other things that give meaning and purpose to my life.